I thought it would be dumb to try
To want something again;
Wanting turns to need, and then
Transmogrifies to pain.

I laughed at people still in love
Who trusted someone's word;
To make my happiness depend
On faith seemed quite absurd.

I lay alone and wonder-struck,
Sleepless in my bed,
Still numb, still dumb, still ice, ice cold,
Not knowing I was dead.

And then you came and shone upon
My meadow full of snow,
And saw the flowers only love
Could recognize and grow;

And made me feel so beautiful
I shed my cold, cold skin,
And opened up my heart to you,
And, fearful, let you in.

And now, my babe, I am in love,
With all that I've been through.
I know the worst of all the world,
And I believe in you.

The wave crashed down hard, breaking my chest in two,
taking with it my stubborn dreams of you.
Exhausted from the pull of the high and low tides,
I scrambled for footing trying to hold my head high.

Memories of heaven and hell flashed before my eyes
as un-faced lovers became liars without any ties.

I tried yelling out, but my cries were just muffled
by the protective wall of my guarded shuffle.

Too strong to fall down and too weak to get up,
I laid in silence waiting, about to give up.

Hiding my broken body and my drowning soul,
trying hard to find peace and make sense of it all.

As I floated without direction, I felt life start to pull
and remembered that I was relentless and hardly a fool.

No longer would I succ*mb to my pain and despair,
for there were still people who knew how to love and play fair.

The surf finally subsided and I found dry ground,
upon my own shoulders where its always safe and sound.